Okay, sorry guys. This one is for Tara. Every now and then, I have to do this. And gushy alert: Forewarning of the mushy.
Tara, you have been gone for 47 days. In Alias, this is somehow a significant number. I can't help but see the correlation. Today is the day that I officially miss you. I mean, I have missed you up until now trust me. It was a missing but not the "I broke down because I realized that not only am I going to miss you this minute, but I will continue to have to miss you for the next 10 months" miss you. If THAT could possible make any sense! :)
I just talked to you a few minutes ago. I love talking to you, it makes me feel happy. I got off with you to get in the bath, and preceded to cry. I mean, cry. That blubbery, silent "I don't want anyone to hear me" cry. I am crying right now. I miss you. You bring me joy. I miss your excitement and passion and upliftment. Is that even a word? Lol... And for those of you reading this not Tara, I know that everything is as it should be, I know that we are both were we are supposed to be and I know that God has something to teach me in all of this. I am not looking for an answer or solution or anything....I just miss my best friend.
I feel so lucky, most people are not this lucky. I not only have a husband who is my best friend and partner. But I have you, my counter part and kindred spirit. I love you and am so happy that you are living your dream. But.....I am aching. I wish I could call you and tell you about the funny thing that happened to me, the old ladies that asked me to have lunch with them today, school, the kids, things I don't understand. I miss you. I love you and miss you...it sounds so stupid saying it this many times. I wish there were other words to say it. How can 3 short little words mean so much? It's not dramatic enough for me. :) And you know that I love the dramatic. Trust me, I look dramatic right now....sitting at the computer crying.
I love you, and think about you a gazillion times a day. I am praying for you and with I could see you soon. Maybe next time it's raining I'll pretend to walk with you in the rain....well, there go the waterworks again! BLAH!
You are my sunshine.
Peace and Bubbles.
3 comments:
Love you girl! I hate that you are aching so bad!!!!!
Saying a prayer for you.
Britt
I know how you feel!!! I miss my friends up in NY too much too :-(
PEACE and BUBBLES* Love that you used this as your title. Girl. You are my beautiful exquisite friend whom I dearly cherish and love. Thank you for spilling your heart on this page and yes, I miss you so much too. Some days are harder than others. Some days I just want to be sitting next to you sipping hot chocolate and laughing hysterically at one of our husbands. Or, go let the WIND take us somewhere crazy. Or, go pray for people to be miraculoulsy healed by the power of the Holy Spirit together. I love you more than you know and am so thankful to God for such a glimpse of heaven. I feel truly blessed to have a friend like you. Big hugs. and yes, Peace and bubbles. love your forever friend T*
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